Samantha Rochard

My creative process.

Monday, May 2, 2016

Guilty


One of the things that is most difficult to get over is the guilt I feel every time I cannot keep up with an obligation. The days when I am good I am so full of hope and promise. But the days when I am not top of my brain; when the head hurts, the ear hurts, the feedback and the dizzy spells are present I am still struggling to just forget the tasks and rest. Just rest.

Why do I feel guilty to be down? Why do I feel like I am doing something wrong whenever I get an episode? Why do I feel I am failing the people around me?


I wonder how many people with the condition go through the same thoughts.

Tuesday, April 19, 2016

Adversity brings inspiration



Looking forward to seeing this work of art. How creative can humans be!!!  LOVE

In battling.....well battling is too strong a word.......in accepting my condition and its life changing values; exploring it has led me to a study that proposes Vincent Van Gogh may have suffered from Meniere's Disease in addition to other afflictions.

Adopting the position that  IT WAS SO (lets just imagine huh) a new series is coming forth, helping me gain acceptance of my new parameters for living.

The first blog post on that, is here :Vincent, Ah Hear Yuh

Sunday, April 3, 2016

The need for calm - Endings and beginnings

River Pool - 16" x 24"  Acrylic on canvas - TT$3000
Followers will appreciate this update. In my adjusting to my condition, I realized that I was viewing every thing as stressful. One incident at home made me recognize that I should not be living alone so much. I needed release from all responsibilities for a while. I have returned to my parent's home, and improving much due a combination of no financial commitments and mom's low salt diet!!!  LOL.

The vertigo episodes are less intense and less frequent. I have only had two in the six or seven weeks I have been here.

Calming right down works a lot.

Continuing to paint, and just letting things take its course.